14-5-11
In the last few weeks I have been quite lost with the project. I’d done some interviews, bought a textbook, read through it, scoured the net a bit. But I was a bit lost with where to direct it from here. I had started at the beginning of the semester with a large-scale proposal that focused into a narrow aspect (urban violence) and now is beginning to bleed out again into different strands. Everyone I’ve had a reasonable conversation with in the last few months, I’ve had a go at explaining what I’m actually doing. It has always come back to
‘Yeh I’m doing Industrial Design. Ahh it relates cos its social design, you know applying design thinking to a social issue… yeh I know its bit hard to get you’re head around, I’m ahh still trying to work it out myself. It’s all quite vague atm…”
Thee vagaries (it’s now a word if it wasn’t before) have been playing on me. I ran away over Easter up the coast, round Sydney, down to Wollongong. The few weeks after that I did not a whole lot of much. I was planning a workshop, and in my defence, chasing some leads in Albury. Keeping busy, rustling some papers, but I didn’t feel I was really progressing so much.
Until now. Wednesday came up to Albury for an AOD forum and that seems to have sparked it. I think I’m learning about my design practice. I fire up for a bit at the beginning, and then it all goes into hibernation for a while. It isn’t until I immerse myself in what ever the project relates to in some way that things start sparking up again. For this it has been human interaction. Seeing the community in action, beginning to see how things happen here, how decisions are made. And I’m not really happy with the process. However as well as seeing things that irritate me, I’ve been uncovering people and things that I’m beginning to see connections between, or possible relationships forming. Last night I went to Midnight Basketball, a PCYC held event to get kids off the streets and keep them busy on a Friday night. It was an insight into one of my possible user groups and has given me a more realistic picture of what types of motivators, ways of pitching how the project progresses I need to keep in mind. I can’t quite translate all of this into words, but there’s something forming. I held a co-creation workshop this morning, which didn’t unfold as I expected but there was something there. I think the main thing is I don’ know what to expect or how this will run, but I need to keep pushing it, chasing leads, ideas, talking them through with people. Drawing tangents together into some sort of vaguely plausible mess and then seeing if I can sculpt them into something solid. Or go the opposite, and take them to some absurd end, that then part of can be chipped off as the seed for another tangent.
I keep saying to people when I tell them my ideas, ‘don’t think of the realities, plausibility, logistics of it just yet. More just think, fuck it’d be cool to do this!” If there’s an energy there that forms, and you get that, then you know it’s worth exploring a bit. Or leaving in the back to ferment a bit. Or just getting down on paper to get it out, and make room.
The problem of drawing my ideas is still an issue though. I think that has been part of the blockage. I feel I should push myself to express myself in this way, as it’s a weak area and I should practice it. But then instead I’ve stagnated and not written anything either. Rediscovering writing again however I have really enjoyed. It is something I enjoyed a lot at school and I find a great way to clarify my ideas. However with design, the written word (in my studies so far anyhow) are looked on as last resort or exotic activity. Give a 2nd year class 1000 words to write by the next week and they’ll freak out! Give them 10pages to sketch and some will be quietly freaking out, but the others will be in their comfort zone. I need to push myself out of this comfort zone in a number of senses. Expand my communication capabilities, mainly drawing so I can sketch without hesitation, not to master level, but comfortable. Also I think I should try not to focus on the fact I’m studying my hometown. It is good as I know it quite well, have a network of people already to expand upon etc. But also there is the idea in the back of my head that the outcome (which I’m keen to try in the practice) will have my name attached to it, will effect the community in someway, and I suppose I’m worried it could be negative. But I think I’m getting ahead of myself here to think it will have that much of an impact. I’m going to work towards what comes too, and deal with the repercussions (positive or negative) later on if or when they happen.
I have a good feeling that what ever this is, is starting to spread and grow, but won’t be revealing itself quite yet…. Stay tuned
(and look I’ve nearly written 1000 words…)